M asked me if there was anything wrong.. why is it like i've been feeling 'sian' recently.. i replied, "im fine, nothing is wrong".
How can i tell him the unhappiness i have in the company? Cant lose my job now.. I cant tell him that i'm unhappy because he's owed me my CPF for months since i brought it up to him..
No job offer, cannot leave. But the environment is so unhealthy now, it makes me feel drained. Lunch, dinner or even casual chatting topics revolve around 'sex'. Gosh, i cant stand that.
Shouldnt they spare a thought for the less open-minded female colleagues in the office? Every single thing is linked back to 'sex'. Can they be more shallow??? Thou that guy was a great help to us initially, i regret being one of those who supported his staying on, and doubted M's fear of hiring a 'rotten apple'... i really shouldnt be racist, but it just proved all the hear-says about their working attitude right! And now, even HE is being influenced.
I'm sorry, M. Sorry that things turned out this way..
Back at home... disappointments as well.
1) The mom said the son is a fat commando, and should be called a commandooo (i dont know what that means thou) instead. In front of the brother and gf and ME. i lost my cool and also jokingly said, 'no la, wher got fat, lost some weight liao'. To that, she replied, 'aiya your man of cause u say not fat la'.......... sigh. thou jokingly as well, but then there was an awkward silence after that.
2) He's back frm reservist but i just feel there's something missing between us.
3) My mom... allowed my brother to use the internet with my laptop behind my back. Not afraid he will spoil something after the iTouch incident. Really... need to dote till like that not. I'm not jealous lei. But dont do it behind my back!! and dont surf YOUTUBE! And guess what.. i tracked on the URLs he surfed. And i stumbled on something that he at the age of 10, shouldnt even see! For the benefit of doubt, i will just treat it as if nothing happened. The next time i see that again, my mom will know about it.
pictures of the trip to kedah... next post, maybe.....
